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31 January 2008 @ 01:41 pm
Private, Spilled  
Title: Private, Spilled
Fandom: Brokeback Mountain
Rating: G
Summary: dead!Jack, dead!Ennis peaceful canon drabble, an outsider's perspective.
Word Count: 259

Private, Spilled

A great sadness has happened here. I can feel it on the air like a smell, but I wouldn't need to to know: the ground is barren in places, the grass visibly scorched in others. The road bears witness: black-worn-gray tire tracks run into the roadside gully where I stand. The wind shifts and I try to follow it, but wind does not allow for hitchhikers. One day...

This wind, though, has tarried a moment. Not for me, I know, but I am caught in the path of emotion. It surprises me: from the great sadness springs revelry, a happiness beyond my experience. I am momentarily renewed before I realize the joy was not mine, only overflowed into my world. I smile for the sky, its deepest blue giving light to the burned-in places on the ground.

It moves away, and I am not welcomed to follow. There's no reason to stay here on the side of the road; the sadness is gone, wiped clean. Only dirt and air remain. The ghost who died here at the hands of his truck, I reason, left the cold earth in the fire. Here he had stood, long waiting on the wind to bear him home.

But no-- the wind was not to bear him home, the wind was home. I felt I had intruded on a subtly private moment, an emotion long-hidden.

Yet, I was glad I had intruded. Something so joyous need not be hidden. I don't know the story of the fire and the wind, but the ending was happy, and that's enough.
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Current Location: University of Minnesota
Current Mood: sympatheticsympathetic
Current Music: Michael Hutchence - Passenger
bmshirts: pic#63198959bmshirts on January 31st, 2008 08:42 pm (UTC)
Private, Spilled
Lovely. Just beautiful. Sad but, in some way, comforting. They are at peace now. No more trouble, no more fear. Thanks for giving us this. Carole
jennydcfjennydcf on January 31st, 2008 08:52 pm (UTC)
I really, really like this. It is one I want to save--now I have to find the ones that go with it.
testa_duratesta_dura on February 1st, 2008 01:11 am (UTC)
I don't know the story of the fire and the wind, but the ending was happy, and that's enough. That's one of the most perfect lines you've ever written. I love it - I want it to stay in my head for a long long time.

Thanks for sharing,

judy_blue_catjudy_blue_cat on February 1st, 2008 02:12 am (UTC)
Ah, very satisfying.
eandjeandj on February 1st, 2008 06:37 am (UTC)
A great sadness but in the end only happiness.
That's enough
Thanks for sharing
sweetjesweetje on February 14th, 2008 05:39 pm (UTC)
This was very nice. Sad but sweet at the same time.
Thank you for this. : )