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13 July 2008 @ 04:23 pm
A Fearless Death [Heroes]  
Title: A Fearless Death
Fandom: Heroes
Character/Pairing: Niki Sanders, Jessica Sanders
Rating: PG
Summary: Niki comes to a last-minute truce with Jessica.
AN: End of Volume 2 Spoilers. Unbeta'd. Written for the 31_days theme "Dear Me".
Word Count: 211

A Fearless Death

I hated her. I hated her from the day I knew she existed in me, and I hated her after I knew that she was going to extreme measures to protect me and Micah. I hated her because she was in me and controlled me and I could do nothing about it. I didn't trust her with Micah, but I couldn't stop her. I didn't even trust her with myself. She was in me.

That day in the fire, though, I wondered if maybe-- maybe I was in her. In that case, was she the better person? She'd tolerated me, one could even say long-sufferingly, while I'd hated her. But I died. And, as I died, all I could think was, "Jessica, Jessica, please take care of Micah. Do anything you have to." I was glad she was there.

And I knew she would. She would take care of him. She would do anything.

I died, if not loving her, then loving that she was there, and that she was in me, and that she had survived. In that moment, nothing was dearer to me than my personal demon. She would do whatever it took to make sure Micah was safe.

I lived a fearful life, but I died a fearless death in her shadow.
Current Location: St. Paul, MN
Current Mood: uncomfortablesneezy
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