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07 September 2007 @ 10:11 am
The Heart Outside: Chapter Two  
Title: The Heart Outside
Fandom: BBM
Rating: R
Disclaimer: The characters belong to Annie Proulx, and I make no profit.
Summary: AU!AU set in Minneapolis, MN. In the timeline, it's currently early mid-July, 2007. Jack and Ennis have a baby through a surrogate mother.
AN: Many thanks to my beta, carbyville. I have no idea how often this will update, though.

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Chapter Two: Pouring a Foundation

"Hello?"

"Jack? It's Naomi."

"Hey, what's up?"

"You have got to get in here."

"What are you talking about? You know I can't--"

"Jack, Billings is coming in tomorrow, and Craig doesn't understand the blueprints. You need to come in."

"Naomi, I can't." As if punctuating the sentiment, Toni woke, and, as had become her modus operandi over the last two weeks, began screaming. Originally, she'd been such a joy, sleeping a lot, cute when awake. She'd train her wide, blue, unfocused eyes on the things around her, trying to take in a world of colors, motions, and patterns. But weeks had passed and her little brain had decided that, by now, the appropriate reaction to everything was to scream bloody murder. The fourteen baby books they'd gotten at the shower their friends'd thrown them warned them about this, but didn't provide a lot in the way of help. Jack high-tailed it to the nursery.

"Is that her?"

"No, that's my next-door neighbor. I always said she's a big baby, didn't I?"

Naomi laughed. "You have to send in a picture so we can put her up on the bulletin."

"Not sure we should be up on the bulletin."

"You already are! We just need a picture."

"Oh. Alright. I'll send one."

"There's already a stack of cards on your desk."

Jack smiled. He'd found such a good place to work. It warmed his heart. The only problem with it was that everyone there was workaholics, and they expected him to be one too. Which, ordinarily, maybe he was, though more than likely just from the pressure to be so.

"Anyway, you have got to find some way to come in. None of this solves the Billings problem."

Jack tucked the phone under his chin while he changed his baby girl. "I can't leave Toni here all alone, and I don't think you want me bringing a screaming baby into the office. Elsdon would pitch a fit."

"Point," Naomi groaned.

"Tell you what. If he doesn't mind it too much, and it isn't going to take too long, send Craig over here with the blueprints. I can't leave here, but I've got a table. No reason I can't explain them to him right here."

"Jack, you're brilliant. A lifesaver. I'll send him right over."

"Yup. I'm not going to be anywhere," Jack grimaced. Truth was, he couldn't remember the last time he'd made a decent foray out of the house. He'd showered yesterday evening, at least. He would have to put some proper clothes on, straighten up the kitchen and living room, maybe try to eat something.

Naomi took down the directions to his house. Jack bounced Toni the entire time, recognizing in her slight gurgling noise the beginnings of her next screaming fit. She was probably hungry by now. So was he, dammit. But feeding her and burping her would have to come first, and by then Craig would be here, so maybe he could just grab a banana or something. It seemed now like every day was some sort of strategic test of his ability to multi task. Craig was a little-needed addition to the intricate ballet, but he had to make sure he had a job to go back to when his leave was up.

When Craig arrived, a very unshowered Jack met him at the door, stuffing Pringles into his mouth from a tube clutched under one arm.

"Come on in." Jack motioned towards the interior. In reality, the house wasn't too much of a mess. As long as you stayed out of the kitchen and bedrooms.

Toni was in her crib. When Jack'd laid her there mere minutes before, she'd been wide awake and had looked pretty uninterested in napping, but at least she wasn't' screaming.

He led Craig back to his office, armed with chips, coffee, and baby monitor. In the past, he'd always strictly adhered to the rule of not bringing food and drink into the office, but he'd never anticipated having to work while starving and on so little sleep.

Jack managed to get about halfway through his meeting with Craig, Craig's wide dark eyes and nodding black hair not, in Jack's experience with the man, truly indicative of his degree of comprehension, when first a gurgle (Jack held his breath), then a moan (Jack cringed), then a full-blown wail issued from the tinny speaker of the baby monitor. Craig looked up at Jack with a smart ass smile. "Guess fatherhood sucks, huh?"

Jack spun his office chair around once, then said with exasperation-- he had never cared for Craig's know-it-all attitude, although in most circumstances he was easy enough to work with-- "No it does not. Now if you'll excuse me, I think this one's mashed yams."

And it was. He didn't know if she had different cries or if he was just getting used to her schedule: shitting after eating after sleeping. He changed her quickly and with minimal breathing while in the bio-containment zone, but as soon as he laid her back onto her yellow-on-yellow polka dot crib sheets, she began to fuss.

"Aww, what's your issue, baby girl? You can tell Daddy." he picked her up again and she quieted down in easily under three seconds, so he laid her down again. Whereupon, she immediately fixed him in her big, blue, crossed eyes and started making grumpy noises again.

"Oh, no, no the 'do what I say' game. Not now, okay." Jack lifted her, feeling her tiny weight in his hand as he cradled her tiny butt, wrapped in a tiny diaper. "Daddy has to work so you can have all sorts of expensive teenage electronics when you grow up." Her fussing, by now, had grown silent.

Jack had a feeling he knew how this was going to play out by now, but he put her down one more time to be certain. Sure enough, she started crying. "Shit," he cursed. "You're an annoying little fucker. Don't tell Ennis I said that." Jack sighed and lifted Toni up once more to carry her down to his office. If he'd been iffy about having Pringles in there, there were no words for the kind of havoc he feared a crying, shitting, puking, peeing newborn could create. But he either had to brave that or to work around her squalling, and he knew which would be easier. He stopped in his and Ennis's bedroom to grab the baby carrier and rushed downstairs to meet a glazed-eyed Craig.

It didn't matter that Jack had the carrier, though, because Toni insisted on being held, or else. Jack and Craig managed. Toni's eyes glazed over before long and she was breathing heavy and peacefully on Jack's shoulder. The deep rumbling of his voice, he guessed, as he spoke to Craig, combined with his body warmth and heartbeat, must have dropped her off to sleep. Jack and Craig were nearly done when Jack was able to slip Toni into her carrier. Jack marveled at how nakedly Craig admired her porcelain beauty before he left. Jack turned to his little girl with fresh eyes to see the faint blush on her cheek, the way she suckled the air as she slept, her eyes scrunched tight, fists clenched, impossibly-light blond fuzz sticking up from her head. He ran dark-haired fingers through the fuzz. he knew he shouldn't touch her as she slept, but in such a peaceful state, resisting that temptation was too difficult.

The front door swung open, squealing its need for oil. Jack leaned back in the chair to watch Toni, waiting for Ennis to find him. They knew no yelling happened if it could be avoided.

"Hey." Ennis popped his head into the door after a good five minutes. Jack had heard Ennis's footsteps has he checked every room before this one.

"Hey."

"You..." Ennis flicked his gaze from Jack to Toni to Jack.. "You working?"

"Yeah," Jack sighed, both of their voices barely above a whisper. "The office was begging me to come in, so I had Craig run out here. I went over some blueprints with him."

"Did that work out alright?"

Jack shook his head. "It worked, but it's not an experience I'm waiting to repeat, thanks to little miss diva here."

"Hmph." Ennis placed his hands on his hips. "Well, you're lookin' nice."

"Thanks. I put clean clothes on for once. At the expense of eating."

"Dressing up for Craig?," Ennis teased.

"Yup. Now back to the point. What's for dinner?"

Ennis shrugged. "Guess I can make something real quick."

"Do that. Emphasis on the quick."

They ended up with sandwiches, eating them in hushed silence while Toni slept in her carrier on the floor by Ennis.

Ennis frowned down at her. "You know she won't sleep tonight if she sleeps this much during the day."

"It's not that much. She's only been asleep for an hour."

Ennis grunted.

"She was ranting and raving all day long. It was nice to see Craig, get back into the company of adults."

"Thought you didn't like Craig?"

"Well I don't dislike him. His bravado is just a bit much for me to take."

Ennis took a large bite of turkey sandwich in response.

"Still, he's a better conversationalist than your daughter over there."

"Mmmm," Ennis said by way of announcing he had something to say, reserving the next spot of conversation for himself. He chewed quickly, swallowed hard, and washed the mouthful down with a hefty swig of Leinie's Sunset Wheat. "I've been thinking about that."

"About what?"

"The way you say she’s mine all the time." Ennis squinted over at Toni, as if examining her.

"She got your coloring, hair--"

"I heard you," Ennis interrupted, "I just..." He shook his head. "You don't see blue eyes like that every day, and going back into my family, we don't have them."

"The mother could've--"

"Not just that. They're, whattaya call it? With genes?"

"Recessive?"

"Yeah."

"Ennis, blond hair is recessive, too, isn't it?"

"It's not like blue eyes!"

Their voices were raised by now and Toni, still asleep, had begun to kick her feet. She let out a high-pitched noise and they both held their breath to watch her. When she seemed to slip back into a peaceful slumber, Jack whispered with force, "It's not just her hair. She looks like you. Look at her."

Ennis contorted his face, grimacing at Toni. "She looks like a baby, Jack."

Jack exhaled in frustration. "Guess we'll just have to wait and see."

"Wait and see what?"

"Who she turns out looking like."

"Won't be no 'wait and see'. We decided we didn't care before we did this thing."

Jack shrugged and fixed his eyes on Toni. "I didn't say I cared. I just want to prove you wrong."

Ennis frowned deeply. "Jack, I can't do this. I don't want to do this. We already decided."

Jack watched Ennis's eyes earnestly.

"We already said she was going to be ours, not mine or yours. I don't wanna... I don't wanna know. I couldn't stand if it was just me and her--." His voice broke off, choked.

Jack sighed and grabbed one of the hands Ennis had clenched like stone around his beer bottle. "Sssh. Alright. I'm sorry. I was just having fun."

Ennis stared, unfocused and grave, and the blackness of the table top.

"Ennis. Listen to me. She's ours. I'm never going to leave you and her alone, ok? She's mine. She's my daughter, too."

Ennis's eyes, filled with worry and pain and the same fear of abandonment Jack had seen plenty of times before, met Jack's. "Sorry," Ennis croaked. "I just worry sometimes. 'Cause you didn't want her, and now you're ready to go back to work."

"I want her," Jack corrected, hurt. "Please don't say that again."

Ennis nodded stiffly.

"And I'm just not cut out for being locked in a house with a lady. If I wanted that, I wouldn't be nearly as queer as I am."

Ennis squinted at Jack.

"Jesus, it was a joke. I'm just not the stay-at-home type, I guess. I'm starting to go a little bit insane already."

"Hmph." Ennis slid back in his chair, pulling his hand out of Jack's.

"The ad runs in the paper tomorrow..."

Ennis swiped a hand over his eyes. "I still don't see why my sister couldn't do it."

"She's not going to be unemployed forever."

"Well, until she finds a job, then."

"She's been working temp jobs to make ends meet. Is she supposed to drop them?"

"We could pay her. Better to pay someone in the family than some stranger."

"I'm not sure that's so true." Jack downed the end of his beer. "I can't help but feel that actually hiring on family for pay is asking for trouble. And I bet you'd have trouble getting her to take the money, anyway. Besides, those temp jobs pay her more than we can afford to."

Ennis tilted his head to the side and stared down the kitchen floor. Jack knew it was the closest he would get to a concession.

"Furthermore," Jack added into the silence, "she already practically tries to raise Antoinette for us. I don't think I want to encourage that. Didn't we talk about all of this before?"

Ennis nodded sullenly. "Alright."

"I'll take care of it all," Jack replied, resigned.

"No, I'll help." Ennis said it quickly, like swallowing something that burned his tongue.

Jack didn't say aloud that Ennis had better help, had better show some interest in who is left it watch his child-- their child-- during the day.

Just then, Toni awoke with a warning gurgle and a foghorn scream. Jack leaned back and groaned. The never ending cycle stopped for no man.
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June: Autumn leavesbig_heart_june on September 7th, 2007 04:21 pm (UTC)

Jack didn't say aloud that Ennis had better help, had better show some interest in who is left it watch his child-- their child-- during the day.

I didn't get this line, is Jack the only one on leave atm? And wasn't Ennis being really interested and concerned when he mentioned he'd rather have his sister then some stranger looking after Toni? I'm also worried Ennis is scared already that Jack might leave them and didn't really want Toni :( I can understand Jack's hurt reaction.

I really love this story, I think there is something totally adorable about the two of them raising and loving a baby of their own. Of course it's not all sweetness and roses with a small new born baby but they seem to be managing okay and once they get the nanny? bit sorted it should be even better. I loved this bit:

Jack turned to his little girl with fresh eyes to see the faint blush on her cheek, the way she suckled the air as she slept, her eyes scrunched tight, fists clenched, impossibly-light blond fuzz sticking up from her head. He ran dark-haired fingers through the fuzz.

AWWWWWWWW.

You write Jack and Toni together so sweetly. And realistically too. I think he's doing a brilliant job with her and having Craig over like that was a good solution even with Toni interupting them. I know it wouldn't work out like that too many times though.

I LOL at this part:

"Shit," he cursed. "You're an annoying little fucker. Don't tell Ennis I said that."

How do you do it, Jess?? You're writing so many great stories and all of them are really really good. Thanks so much. :)

I need a cute baby icon! LOL
Bloody Jack Flint: InuKag: Pure Devotionrhye on September 10th, 2007 03:55 am (UTC)
Yes, Jack is the only one on leave. Ennis works a ore blue-collar job with less liberal leave policies. And yes, Ennis is being concerned, but Jack is being insecure in that Ennis is questioning Jack's ideas, so I think that is manifesting as some aggression towards Ennis :(

But they are managing ok :) I think it's great to see them be able to mold another human being.

I guess I just have an overactive imagination? I always thought it was a detriment, but it turns out it's not always a detriment ^^

Thanks for reading, June!
samtyr: icon_jake by probodiesamtyr on September 7th, 2007 04:41 pm (UTC)
"Just then, Toni awoke with a warning gurgle and a foghorn scream. Jack leaned back and groaned. The never ending cycle stopped for no man."

Heh heh heh. ::snickers:: Love how Jack is managing to keep his time filled with the little angel. The ultimate test of multi-tasking skills! And he's recognizing the different cries, too! LOL! I hope that Ennis is taking on his share of everything, I'd hate to think he's missing out on all of the fun. XD But seriously, this is a great fic, and I can't wait to read more. Thank you for sharing this.
Bloody Jack Flint: JackxEnnis Divorce Hug Hushrhye on September 10th, 2007 03:56 am (UTC)
I'm not sure Ennis is taking on his share, but that's to be addressed in the next chapter ;) You're welcome, and thank you for reading!
rosietrosiet on September 7th, 2007 05:15 pm (UTC)
This is very interesting. It's lovely how you show that Jack really adores Toni, although she has completely turned his and Ennis' worlds upside down, as babies tend to do!

Thanks for this.

Rosie
Bloody Jack Flint: JackxEnnis Divorce Hug Hushrhye on September 10th, 2007 03:56 am (UTC)
You're welcome! I'm glad you liked it!
not_hathor: Brokeback Ennisnot_hathor on September 7th, 2007 06:24 pm (UTC)
Ooops! Somehow I missed Chapter one?

Jess, you've got the baby-parent dynamic down perfectly! yams.... been there, done that... washed the t-shirt (over and over and over)...

Daddy!Jack is almost as adorable as Baby!Toni!

*HUGS*
Bloody Jack Flint: JackxEnnis Divorce Hug Hushrhye on September 10th, 2007 03:59 am (UTC)
Wow, really? I've never had a baby or even been much near one, lol! I just try to observe other people closely. Thanks for the praise!
Julie120cassie on September 7th, 2007 06:29 pm (UTC)
Hi

You've shown just how it turns your world upside down. Jack can't quite finish a job and she cries again! Also, he loves her so much.

Family looking after babies only seem to add to the problems. Oh well, mine are teenagers now, tell Jack it gets worse!

Thanks for updating.I don't know how you write so many fics at once!

Julie
my_lil_darlinmy_lil_darlin on September 7th, 2007 07:16 pm (UTC)
**mine are teenagers now, tell Jack it gets worse!**

You're right, Cassie, it does get worse. Or morphs into a different kind of worse, anyway. I always called the ages of 11-15 or so the "sub-human stage". Gah. Awful.

My kids are adults now, and I've also been presented with a beautiful granddaughter (first girl born into my husband or my families in 40 years!), and as I said in my comment, grandkids make all that s-h-i-t (both the literal and the figurative kind) worth it in the end!

Jack and Ennis ain't see nuthin' yet! heh
(no subject) - rhye on September 10th, 2007 04:01 am (UTC) (Expand)
my_lil_darlin: openrangemy_lil_darlin on September 7th, 2007 07:07 pm (UTC)

I went back and re-read the first part, and enjoyed them both very much.

As anyone who's ever done it knows, parenting is the hardest job in your life, maybe (probably) even harder than marriage itself, but boy, is it important-- trite as it sounds, that baby really is the future of your family, and the next generation of mankind.

Raising kids is scary as shit, fun as anything, and annoying as hell in turns. It's a good thing the good Lord made 'em cute, 'cause otherwise, we'd all kill our own young and eat 'em for supper. Seriously. Heh. Personally, I think I had kids just so I could have grandchildren-- grandkids are where it's at!

I realize there are BBM fans who hate this idea of E/J having a child together, but I love it for its refreshing honesty (people in love really do want kids sometimes, and that includes men) and for the family-ness and old-married-feel of it.

You never said-- are the guys in a civil partnership or married or did they have a private commitment ceremony? Just wondering.

Love this, and hope you'll do more.
Bloody Jack Flint: Kagome Angelus Hushrhye on September 10th, 2007 04:03 am (UTC)
You never said-- are the guys in a civil partnership or married or did they have a private commitment ceremony? Just wondering.

Minneapolis has a legal equivalent to marriage, which I assumed they have but never explicitly stated, so you can go ahead and assume so as well.

Thank you for your lovely comments! :)
stilllearning24stilllearning24 on September 7th, 2007 08:58 pm (UTC)
Oh I'm so glad to see you updated, I find great joy in this story.

I admire the guys, really I do. Even if some people can get pass 2 men being together, many still think that them raising children together is wrong. It seems like, so far, people are supportive - so glad they have that.

And the description of Jack staying home with the baby and what that life is like - talk about hitting the nail on the head. Walking on egg shells so as not to walk the child, no time for showering or cleaning, feeling stuck in the house - perfect. But even more than that you did a great job of balancing how, while all of that is very true, you love doing it and love parenting.

When Craig asked if parenting sucked, when Toni started to cry, and Jack gave his definitive No it does not, you know he really meant it, although he's very realistic about the demands on him.

Their little diva - love it.

And Ennis concerned about abandonment, I don't think that that's a theme that explored a whole lot in FanFic, but really every important person in his life left him except Jack (well the girls too, but it didn't look like they were all that close to him as they grew up even though they certainly loved each other.

Thanks for this unique look at our guys as primary care givers, it's a delight.
Bloody Jack Flint: Kagome: Where There is Hoperhye on September 10th, 2007 04:09 am (UTC)
Your whole comment blew me away. It really did.

the fact that there are people who don't like the idea of men being parents really spurred me on to write this story. I don't know how or why, but it was my impetus. Jenna once told me that slash should have a feeling of flying in the face of the conservative moral order. In the modern world, being gay can sometimes lack that, and since this character is canon and not slash, there really is no good FU to the nay-sayers. I think that's why I loved the idea of adding a child to the mix.

I couldn't tell you how thrilled I am to have gotten the sense of parenting correct. I've never been a parent and I've never been around a baby, even. I'm just trying to imagine what it would be like.

I'm not sure why I personally have never explored the abandonment issue with Ennis before this story. I think having a newborn must be an emotional time that gets you thinking about your own parents, and his left him, and also because this Ennis is more expressive of his feelings, but it does lead me to think about how much a part it played in canon, you know? I never thought about it super hard. Maybe it was part of why he felt so strongly about not being able to leave his family?

Anyway, thanks you times a million for leaving a comment that gave me plenty to think about! I love it.
sweetjesweetje on September 7th, 2007 09:02 pm (UTC)
I enjoyed this chapter. I think Jack is a very patient daddy. Newborns are a bundle of joy, but they can be a handful. Jack has the instincts of a parent, getting the feeling for her little body's schedule.

I'm looking forward to your next update. I'd like to see who they finally get to care for Toni. : )
Debra
Bloody Jack Flint: Lureen: Beautiful Wreckrhye on September 10th, 2007 04:10 am (UTC)
Thanks for reading! The next chapter is nearly completely written, so it won't be long, though I don't think you will be getting to meet the nanny just yet in it...
MadBottomsmadbottoms on September 7th, 2007 10:05 pm (UTC)
I can totally commiserate with Jack. They can be annoying little 'fuckers' but you love them anyway.

I think I love this story too. Lookong forward to more.

Sandy
Bloody Jack Flint: Lureen: Beautiful Wreckrhye on September 10th, 2007 04:12 am (UTC)
Thank you for the kind words!! I was so nervous when posted Chapter 1 since it seemed like so many people did not like the mere concept of Jack and Ennis with a baby, but so far the reception to this story has been great!
:: enniscake ::enniscake on September 8th, 2007 01:44 pm (UTC)
Hello, Jess. I just caught up this story. It's interesting. Really like the idea of EJ having their own baby girl ^^ I love Toni immediately 'cause she is EJ's. Please keep the interesting story going =)

toffee
Bloody Jack Flint: Lureen: Beautiful Wreckrhye on September 10th, 2007 04:14 am (UTC)
Thank you! Don't worry, I have the next chapter almost completely written :)
(no subject) - enniscake on September 10th, 2007 05:56 am (UTC) (Expand)
bbmjack324 on September 9th, 2007 03:30 am (UTC)

So sweet Jack staying at home with Toni and Jack's way with her. Love how he talks to and about her.

This was touching from Ennis: "We already said she was going to be ours, not mine or yours. I don't wanna... I don't wanna know. I couldn't stand if it was just me and her--." His voice broke off, choked.

....Ennis's eyes, filled with worry and pain and the same fear of abandonment Jack had seen plenty of times before, met Jack's. "Sorry," Ennis croaked. "I just worry sometimes. 'Cause you didn't want her, and now you're ready to go back to work."

"I want her," Jack corrected, hurt. "Please don't say that again."


Bloody Jack Flint: Zelda Triforce Hushrhye on September 10th, 2007 04:15 am (UTC)
Thank you for reading :)
lolitaraylolitaray on September 9th, 2007 10:33 am (UTC)
I'm enjoying this but all my parenting instincts jump into place and I really, really want to see that baby cradled to Jack's heart in a sling! At that age, if she's up against Jack's warm chest, you'd never hear a peep out of her -- and who could blame her after all...lol.

And lol about the unshowered Jack!
Bloody Jack Flint: Zelda Triforce Hushrhye on September 10th, 2007 04:18 am (UTC)
Well, he did hold her there for a while during his meeting with Craig! I'm just trying to reflect what I see in the average American parenting household. But it's kind of neat because I know nothing about babies, but that's just what I wrote in, that against Jack's chest she didn't cry but otherwise she did. Yay! I've never even been near a baby for more than about a total of an hour in my entire life. But I know puppies and kittens are very responsive to heartbeats so I figured babies would be? lol.

So so thrilled you are reading!
ennis4me on September 11th, 2007 06:50 pm (UTC)
The Heart Outside - Chapter 2
I loved this AU....anybody who hasn't taken care of an infant truly doesn't understand the work involved....and although it's work from the heart, it's tiring and grinding.

The reward? A tiny hand that holds you tight....the feel of a baby's breath....the smell of newborn skin....the certainty that everything in the world isn't as important as the small life in your arms.

I'm glad that J&E are able to experience this.

This is an interesting small view into Ennis though....I think his fear of abandonment may play a key role in future chapters??? not sure....

** Ennis frowned deeply. "Jack, I can't do this. I don't want to do this. We already decided."

Jack watched Ennis's eyes earnestly.

"We already said she was going to be ours, not mine or yours. I don't wanna... I don't wanna know. I couldn't stand if it was just me and her--." His voice broke off, choked.

Jack sighed and grabbed one of the hands Ennis had clenched like stone around his beer bottle. "Sssh. Alright. I'm sorry. I was just having fun."

Ennis stared, unfocused and grave, and the blackness of the table top.

"Ennis. Listen to me. She's ours. I'm never going to leave you and her alone, ok? She's mine. She's my daughter, too."

Ennis's eyes, filled with worry and pain and the same fear of abandonment Jack had seen plenty of times before, met Jack's.**

I looked for Chapter 1 and could not find it - please help.

Your talent is amazing - looking forward to the next chapter. Thanks.....Adrianne
Bloody Jack Flint: Young Zelda Startled Hushrhye on September 11th, 2007 09:44 pm (UTC)
Re: The Heart Outside - Chapter 2
I'll respond more later, but I added a link for you to get to all the chapters, at the top of the fic. You can always also just click ont he title tag of any of my fics to get to all chapters of it :)
midget_sizemidget_size on December 4th, 2007 05:34 pm (UTC)
"You're an annoying little fucker. Don't tell Ennis I said that."

"Guess fatherhood sucks, huh?"

Jack spun his office chair around once, then said with exasperation-- he had never cared for Craig's know-it-all attitude, although in most circumstances he was easy enough to work with-- "No it does not. Now if you'll excuse me, I think this one's mashed yams."


omg. How have I not read this? It's AWESOME. I love how Jack is totally frazzled, like any new parent. But is there going to be an issue with him being perceived as the "mother"?
joetheonejoetheone on June 13th, 2011 11:48 pm (UTC)
read both
Well darn it you have a great story going on here raising a child together as a gay couple is so extrodinary. I did it in a time when it was not fashionable and not accepted at all and well like some cases in Illinois right now the Cathloic charities are trying to block it altogether. i raised two girls through foster care in a sort of unorthodox way. I was only 19 when a friend a bit older had a mental break down and her two little girls were going to be seperated and sent to foster care. I took them in and swore I would take care of them it was a rough couple years not so much the girls but the system itself the social worker stopped several times a week and gave me a hard time every time because at 19 I was in a irelationship but he was not exactly perfect guy or father type so even though he was around I did the majority of it and worked 3 jobs to support them all the way through college and marriage and now children. They were 7 and 9 when I got them I was 19 and well I was young they were young and one was a golden child the type every parent wants perfect grades never in trouble and always just great The other was a hellion and pushed every buttonn in the book it was an experience I will never ever forget or give up or trade or regret. Yeah it cost a lot of money and some of my other gay friends had better things then I did but I had a loving household with love filling it. I'm excited to see how Toni grows on the boys and how they manage things. Joe